This is a case of wanting too much in a very short amount of time.
Here I was staring blankly at a sentence in Japanese, the Kanji bouncing off my head. I was feeling desperate, again. Why couldn’t I just read the Kanji like a fluent native? How many more words did I need to know before I could read these Tumblr posts without using the dictionary?
I opened up Jisho and looked up the unknown words (which were all of them, btw) and I tried to make sense of the sentence once again. I didn’t get it. The length of the sentence didn’t help either. I looked at it again, this time breaking it into parts. Argh.
My head was about to explode. I finally gave up. It wasn’t worth it. But I had to find a solution to the problem – how do I practice reading Japanese without having too many bumps on the way? The answer was simple. I just had to read shorter sentences.
It made a lot of sense to me. Reading long, convoluted sentences would only interrupt my reading flow, reducing my chances of learning anything of value and destroying my love for reading Japanese. It would be better if the sentences were shorter; Even better if they had only 2-5 Kanji in them. I think Manga are a wonderful source of short sentences. They not only expose you to new Kanji but also new vocabulary.
This still didn’t solve the wanting to be fluent though. I have no clue how to fix it. But I’ll tell you one thing I can do with it. I can let it motivate me to study harder. Nothing will make me more happier than realising one day that I’m getting better. Maybe one day I’ll come across this blasted sentence again to find that I can read it without needing a dictionary. And that’s going to be one helluva day.
P.S. I have started reading Shin-chan to practice reading Japanese. It was a gift from a pen-pal.