The balancing act.

It’s Day God-only-knows of the lockdown here in India. It’s been a while since I stopped going to the office and began working from home. There may be many things to complain about the situation we’re all in, but I would like to focus on the blessings as much as I can. Although I do miss the freedom of being able to go out and eat food made by someone other than me (I’m not really a good cook), I’m grateful that I’m safe and that I have a job to help me get through this period.

I’m writing here as I was inspired to do so after listening to Chris Do talk about motivating oneself to be productive. Now that I’m home a lot, I find that I have a lot of time of my hands that could be put to better use. This is not to say that being productive all the time is my ultimate goal. I would consider that as an extreme end of the same stick as being lazy. My goal here is to create a healthy balance of work, play and rest.

Now, I love to learn. I am fascinated by many topics like Design, Human Behaviour, Personal Development, mindset strategy etc etc. Whenever a topic fascinates me I tend to dive deep into it until it turns into information overload. It’s like eating a bag of chips. You eat one chip after another and before you know it you’ve eaten so much that you start feeling sick.

I feel like I’m sick right now. Although I’ve come far thanks to my learnings, I find myself stuck now, unable to move forward. This feeling of frustration and depression is not something I want to sit with for a long time. That’s where Chris Do’s video comes in.

One of my takeaways from the Chris Do video was that the learning circle is complete only when you’ve applied what you’ve learnt to something tangible. What I’ve realised thanks to Chris Do, is that I’m not converting all that information into a product. All that information that I’ve derived from books and online mentors is pure gold. But it’s of no use if I don’t find an outlet or an application for the same. Applying those strategies to my own life have benefitted me a lot and I can see clear progress in myself. But I’ve reached a point where it’s not enough. Something is missing. I think it’s because I feel my work isn’t done yet if I don’t share it with others.

My goal here isn’t to motivate, although any amount of  positive influence I might have on someone’s life would be mind blowing. My goal here is to speak out, to yell, to scream, to make my place in the world. I want to be seen and heard. And for that I have to say and do things to be seen and heard.

And so here I am, with this blog of mine. This is the vehicle I’ve chosen to speak out. I’ve a long way to go, but I’m glad I’ve started. i have avoided putting pen to paper for years because I thought I wasn’t doing anything special; that there was no use for these words to be out there. But as Chris Do reminded me today, it isn’t about the destination, it’s about the journey. This journey is about growth, about discovery; about learning and leaping and dancing and performing and creating.

Starting today, I would like to share my learnings with the world. I’ll try not to be hard on myself if I feel like my ideas or my writing sucks. And I’ll celebrate every time I do allow myself to create and publish a post on the site. Because, it’s not the destination but the journey that counts.